MAG 186 /// MAG 200

reading these side by side .... do you ever just want to pass away

[ID: Digital drawing of Martin and Also Martin from TMA. They are sitting side by side, both with their elbows braced on their thighs. Martin is a bearded, pale white man with greying brown hair, wearing blue jeans and a mustard jumper under a brown leather jacket. His posture is hunched, and he looks tiredly off to one side.

Also Martin is a freckly, slightly translucent, white man with ginger hair and hazel eyes. He wears a light brown business shirt and grey slacks, and has one eyebrow raised as he glances judgmentally at Martin. Behind them is a dark, stormy moor, with rain visible in the foreground. End ID.]

i just dig the thought of Also Martin looking slightly uncomfortably oversaturated in a colour way while Original Flavour Marto™ just looks oversaturated in a wet cat way

i woke up and chose pain

MAG 186: Martin has tea and therapy with himself

Meme for @a-mag-a-day Day 193

MAG 186 - Quiet

I Think I'm Hilarious/j

I have never read Wuthering Heights myself, I’m guessing the book has a lot of wide open spaces.

more poorly photographed scribbles…it’s all martin this time

the fact martin would pay any price except killing jon is sickening to me

MAG 186 - Quiet

doodle 186/200; days left - 17/110 1/128

mahtin² :]]

Round One Part Seven - Match 63

Once again, the formula has put some bad bitches against each other. This time, it's Martin v Martin (and Also Martin)!

MAG 170 - Recollection | Spotify - Acast - YT | Wiki | Transcript

The recollections of Martin Blackwood. Recorded in Situ.

MAG 186 - Quiet | Spotify - Acast - YT | Wiki | Transcript

A dialogue on solitude. Recorded by Martin Blackwood, in Situ.

I love this one. Martin, who is pretty genre-savvy on the whole, is like "I've seen this episode before, I know it's a trap," and Also Martin is like "Nope! We are going to have a Productive Conversation!" 🎉

Also Martin: Avatar of tricking your doppelgänger into therapy

Are you a MAG 186 kind of person or are you a MAG 187 kind of person?

mag 186 - 1

me - 0

mag 186 - quiet

i've been thinking a lot lately about the need to confront your depression to truly be able to move on from it. its pretty relevant to my life currently, but i also think it's just kind of a general thing. not necessarily to relive it or whatever, but to truly work through it all once your in a more rational state. i kinda think that's what martin's doing here - obviously shit still sucks, but going back to take a look at it all once he's climbing up from his lowest point in season four really seems like an important step for him

thing is, sadness is not bad. there's catharsis in it, a lot of the time, and genuinely therapeutic qualities in it. it's a natural part of life. issues arise when it takes things over or when you don't have a good way to deal with it. which really is what his domain is for him. it's not meant to hurt him, but it's more of a controlled enviornment to confront your emotions in. that's pretty much what therapy is, anyway, right?

martin still struggles after this. he's very good at denial and burrying his emotions, and the way he seems to deal with both his own depression and the general state of the world is to just refuse the way it is. he does a pretty good start at accepting the former, but he continues to struggle with the larger scale external stuff. i think a lot of it lays in the fact that hearing that things won't always be fine or that some things will always be awful is really hard when you're trying to fight your way out of the depression hole. as frustrating as his refusal to see the world for what it is is, it's still a good sign. i think depression so often comes from a deep sense of pessimism and nihilism, where it feels like no matter what, the world is going to shit. the first step to getting out tends to be to no longer view the world as such. but of course, when the world truly is falling apart, it's difficult to find that step out. denying the state of the world might not be the best course of action, but it's far from unreasonable, nor the worst course. i still view it as a sign of him wanting to get out

LMAO