ALSO I wonder if any animation directors watched that confrontation between Luke & Vader and thought to themselves “gosh we should get Mark Hamill into voiceover work”. The raw agony and despair in his voice alone…
So I panicked after posting this that I had mis-remembered the run time of the OT and i was a fake fan, so i googled it and
Of all the things I would expect a machine learning program to be able to do before it was released to the public, “add three numbers together” would be, like, the first one.
Me: Ugh, why are the same movies always on tv? Who is even watching them anymore?
Me when A New Hope is on tv: Well, I know what I’m doing for approximately the next six hours…
First off OP i am giving you hugs and second off i am assuring you that there are large, welcoming Jewish communities out there who do not gaf about patrilineal-ness, and i say this not to dismiss your experience of right now, but more of a “it gets better” sort of thing. (Also I think the jumblr community has gotten better about this in recent years. Or everyone who cares has me blocked already. It might be that second thing.)
Also, while i definitely catch shit for being Jewish & from an interfaith family, the shit has increased exponentially since i stopped entertaining the “so is your mom or your dad Jewish?” line. Especially since, like, I’m not coy about my family! If someone really cared to find out they could idk get to know me? Do people who ask that not know that we know that they’re using it as a test to decide whether they will consider us “Jewish enough” to be a part of our own culture? Well now I’ve made it a test for them! If they care about the answer, I don’t care to listen to what they have to say!
Being patrilineal is such a trip because other Jews treat you like absolute shit, so you either A) have to lie and hide about your identity or B) you just dont interact with other Jews, and so you become this isolated Jew with only non jewish friends, feel completely disconnected to the culture yet by nature of having to overcompensate you’re *so* jewish. You speak Hebrew/yiddish/ladino, and you’re more observant than your full blooded cousins, and you’re politically active, and you make jewish food and wear judacia and so to your friends, partners (because you learned the hard way you can’t date other Jews) , you’re SO Jewish. You’re the perfect, most Jewy jew. Your non Jewish friends pick up your language and eat your food and come to your Shabbat but little do they know outside the private life you’ve made for yourself, you’re “not Jewish”. You had a bat mitzvah you wear a Hebrew name plate every day, you have Israeli friends (and pay more attention to Israeli politics than the rest of your fully Jewish family), and you wear your hair natural and have your original nose (unlike the rest of your family), and it’s still not fucking enough.
Your blood is 3/4 Jewish and you have the same high risk of certain cancers and diseases as every other ashkenazi and you were bullied relentlessly in school for being a Jew and ostracized in college for being a Jew but it doesn’t matter! You’re not really a Jew! All the Jewish guys who got cold and disappeared when they found out, doesn’t matter! You’re not really a Jew!
“You’re so bitter” I am! I’m fucking bitter! It’s 2024 and this bullshit is fucking backwards and I’m not afraid to say that. A 1/4 Jew who has only one Jewish grandmother or even great grandmother is more Jewish than me? Because I have 3 Jewish grandparents but none are the right one? If I was to find one random great great grandmother would I be good enough to you then?
I made a cross-stitch pattern for Pride month based on Gilbert Baker's original pride flag colors and their meanings. the pattern is about 80 x 100 stitches. I'm hoping to have it stitched in time for June next year, but I'm posting it here so everyone else can try it out too! 🏳️🌈