I'm reading this erotic novel about a priest (don't ask), and I started thinking about BookTok again, and I got so mad. All these girls who only read books with smut, you all need help.

Why has it become so fashionable to read only spicy books? And why is every recommendation on TikTok asking about the spice level? This is crazy. There is something wrong with them. And if you tell them they're crazy, they respond with "why won't you let people enjoy things?" No, I won't! You all need help!

Why is everyone convinced that it doesn't matter what you read, as long as you're reading? No. If you only read such garbage, it's better that you don't read at all. And because everyone reads only this crap now, only such things are being published. I can't trust anyone.

Every time I start a book, I'm afraid. Because everyone everywhere says it's good. And then it turns out it's only good if you're a brainless, stupid freak with no critical thinking skills. Don't piss me off. I'm so mad. We lost the plot.

And then there's the argument that reading is a girl's hobby, so BookTok hate is misogynistic. I have a gun. I'm gonna lose it.

tw silly rant :3

just a depressive episode. but trigger warning for another something

i feel fucking terrible that i had to leave my cousin's birthday party. she's the most important person in my entire world yet i had to leave her with our other cousins. it sounded like they wanted me to be there a lot but i couldnt be there. i hate this shit we were laughing and hanging out then suddenly a depressive episode hit me thinking everyone just hates me and wants me to leave out of nowhere and i had to leave because i couldnt take anything anymore. im trying so hard not to cut right now. she understood and tolerated me but i feel like i upset everyone and failed yet again

Unpopular opinion but the reason being a teenager sucks is less to do with hormones and social cliques and more to do with the fact adults fucking hate teenagers. The fact that adults expect teenagers to be able to take on adult responsibilities yet don't deserve rights of an adult. They don't see teenagers as human beings and they aren't prepared to see kids with their own formed identities and humanity. Teenagers are so sexualized and seen as needing to take on more and more adult responsibilities. Yet when they want rights and humanity they are denied. The years your brain spends wanting nothing more than to form an identity are being taken away from you. Teenagers are essentially being kicked out of social spaces unless they have an extra 40 dollars lying around anytime they want to go out. Teenagers being kicked out of the mall just for existing or groomed into the school to prison pipeline. And now creating legislation to keep them off the Internet. Our society hates teenagers. And does everything we can to hurt them. The fact that anyone makes it out of their teenage years without trauma is a fucking miracle frankly.

" b..but their proportions are..off " SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! THEY ARE LEARNING!!! THEY ARE PEOPLE!!! NOT EVERYTHING THEY DO IS GONNA BE PERFECT!! THEY DESERVE TO SHARE THEIR ART AND RECEIVE AS MUCH AS LOVE AS A BIG, " PERFECT " ARTIST!!! KEEP POSTING YOUR ART!!! MAKE THE CRITICS ANGRY!!! THEY ARE JUST PATHETIC CREATURES!! TRYING TO EATTT AWAY AT YOUR CONFIDENCE TO GROW!!! I'M GONNA TEAR MULTIPLE TREES OUT OF THE GROUND RIGHT NOW !! LISTEN TO ME, YOUR ART MAY NOT BE WHERE YOU WANT IT TO BE, BUT QUITING WON'T IMPROVE IT! I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOUR ART, AND CRITICS ARE LITTLE THINGS THAT LIVE IN LIGHTSWITCHES!! AND NEWSFLASH, NOT EVERYONE IS LOOKING FOR ACCURATE PROPORTIONS AND TO IMPROVE. III PERSONALLY AM ATTEMPTING TO IMPROVE BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN EVERYONE ELSE IS!!!

Sorry I'm not low empathy autistic in the "mysterious loner boy who secretly cares about his friends and talks in a monotone voice" way and I'm actually just completely indifferent to the suffering of people I don't know personally and help strangers out of a sense of "this is the right thing to do" and not "I feel so bad for this person" or guilt.

I sit and listen to my friends even though I don't really care about hearing about their problems because I know they'll be upset if I don't, and despite the fact I honestly can't genuinely care about the issue itself, I care about the impact it's having on my friends and that's enough to make me want to help them through it.

Did you know that's actually an expression of empathy all of its own?

It will absolutely happen again I literally am not even sorry

You gyns ever think about how so many men who hate women will straight up admit that their hatred for women originates from some negative experience they had with a girl in like middle school and just lose your mind a bit because you realize that if women generalized how they view/treat men in the same way that men generalize their views/treatment of women there literally wouldn’t be a single woman alive that didn’t posses an intense hatred of men and act accordingly, or is it just me?

This Is A Gay Asian Rant About BL Comments Made By Some Queer Westerners I See Sometimes.

So you know of those gays (usually white) that made dumb tiktok dancing to list of countries that legalized same sex marriage and list of countries that discriminate against LGBTQIA+ poeple as a way to say something racist. yeah i kinda got the same vibes from some comments regard how asian BL is homophobic just cause they don't live up to queer western standard. look, i'm not saying that some BLs and their creators don't deserve criticism regard how they capitalized/exploited queerness for an easy cash grab.

But people need to understand that Asian countries despite recent progress are still very much culturally conservatives. so when people says that thai bl is homophobic and all the characters looks like bunch of straight guys, which is true for some olders thai BLs i'm not gonna denied that. but after all this time and newer BLs generally being very queer and most of creators being out queer themself and poeple still making these comments, i'm annoyed.

And don't get me start on the actors. you don't know them! why are you making assumption and calling them queerbaiter just cause they acts in bl. like maybe they're straight, maybe they're not but what they're definitely doing is making queer content for you know, queer people here. so when you made halfass comments about their sexuality what do you think that made other queer people who still in the closet feels. and when you add the nationality to that, "these thai bl pair are this and that, this korean actor is so ungrateful for his bl past", etc. when our societies are still very much still in progress regard LGBTQIA+ acceptance. it make us living here feels fucking awful like somehow we're lesser queer than people in the west just cause we don't have citibank at pride or some shit.

And the shittiest in my humbled opinion are comments regard censored chinese bls. people do know like, that the creators making these bls are risking their livelihoods for this. that these shows getting make at all are miracles. yes it sucked that they're censored but they're still very much queer shows making by queer people who want to express thier queerness despite the chinese government being the chinese government. when people dimissing these shows as not belonging in queer media, you're also dimissing their creators and audiences as not belonging in the community.

Look what i want to say is that we're trying our best over here, and maybe our best are not up to your liking. the ways we talk and express our queerness maybe still can be perceived as problematic by western queer standard. but these media are our house and you're the guests. for people aren't shitty we appreciated that you're here engaging and loving our media, this is your home too and you're welcome in it. i can speak for myself that i very much love being here on tumblr and interacting with people from all over the world who love BL. but for people who are being shitty sometimes about asian bl.

YOU'RE THE GUESTS, BEHAVE!

never had a boyfriend

never had a first kiss

never been asked out

never asked someone out

never had a roaster

never been on a date

chat am i cooked?

Sincerely, STFU

I KNOW IT'S TOXIC.BUT, MY LOVE, THE TOXICITY I FUCKING ENDURED SHOULD HAVE MADE ME A RADIOACTIVE BIOMEDICAL HAZARD, BY NOW. SO IT'S MY CHOICE TO TURN MY TRAUMA N TOXICITY INTO A FUCKING AESTHETIC.

I don't get why the fuck everyone literally fucking everyone shits on girlbloggers like damn i never heard you comment on toxic men, never addressing about all those women hating twitter threads. Like, Men shit on Women every fucking day, and we can't even post toxic feminine things.

Thinking about an argument scenario with abby, where you’re so fucking mad at her—but she just keeps trying to get you to fuck with her.

Of course—not an actual argument that would require a civilized or serious conversation, but more like a playful argument that you just happened to be way too invested in. (ex: an argument over what dip is better for chips, comparing you and hers favorite shows, etc. not actual serious stuff!) You could be furious out of your own mind—annoyed, aggravated, in the mood to throw a literal table at her, and all she would do is baby you.

You had been arguing about this for the past half hour, and she still had the audacity to sit here and smirk at you while she manspreaded on the couch. You were pacing around the room, rolling your eyes and trying to explain to her the problem at hand. “abby fucking anderson—just, god.” you said with the deepest sigh you’ve ever taken to put emphasis on how frustrated you really were. “Y’know what? We’ll just order doordash. God—you can’t fuckin’ take this seriously.”

Abby pouted with a laugh that sounded way too amused than it should’ve, which only made you even closer to actually throwing a table at her or something. She chuckles provokingly, “Aww, is my baby upset? does she just need a good fuck to keep her back in her place?” She said in such a way that bothered you way too much than it should have. You rolled your eyes and practically yelped, “abby—my fucking god.”

She looked at you teasingly with a cheeky smile on her face, “Yes pretty girl?”

You sighed, “Just—just be quiet. For gods sake.”

-

Next thing you know, you’re crumbling before her eyes as you bounced up and down on her 7 inch strap, the tip of it reaching the rim of your cervix.

She keeps her hands on your waist, being sure to give you enough support you need to ride her properly—but being sure to still also give you a little bit of a hard time.

She said with a sly smile, “Fuck…This is all my baby needed? Was some good cock? Hm?” She paused to thrust up into you, causing you to whimper. “Some good dick to make her shut up? Realize her place, Yeah?”

You nodded weakly, depending on her for practically giving your limbs all the stability it needed—looking at her with fucked out eyes. “M-mhhmm…”

She made sure to make you say it—to say you lost with your own mouth. “Won’t talk back to me anymore, won’t you baby?”

You nodded obediently like you did the past hundred times shes made you cum, “mmm—mmhmmm….w-wont…t-talk…” you paused to catch your breath, “..b-back..”

She pulled you close to her with a satisfied smile, “Atta girl.”

She knew she could dumb you down, no matter what.

Look femboy porn is cool n all. I mean it. I like that stuff, but honestly sometimes when I search up femboys the thing I'm looking for is outfits and fashion inspiration. Yes, you have a very nice butt, but where's the DRIP.

I miss Shady Sands.

That's it, that's the post.

I'm just tired of places and people that I like in fiction being destroyed for story reasons, first it happened to Sarah Lyons, then Shady Sands gets nuked by a divorced middle manager whose wife left him and took the kids because he didn't like civilization rebuilding on the surface. I think that was the dumbest fucking reason for a place to get nuked, and then we don't even see any sign of the NCR in their home state. We only see a flag and some raiders parading around in their armor, that's it. No Boneyard, no Vault City, no soldiers on patrol, it feels like they just turned the West Coast into the East Coast, which brings the show down from a solid 8/10 to a 5 or 6/10.

That and I'm tired of the Brotherhood being on top, fuck those guys I'm so tired of seeing them everywhere at this fucking point.

It doesn’t get better with time. It gets worse. People leave. Love dies. Patience and understanding grows thin.

My life is utterly destroyed.

“i want a childish/sensitive girl” until she doesn’t know how to communicate correctly, goes silent when she’s upset, always thinks you’re upset with her, scared to have sex, cries almost every day, thinks you’ll leave her for someone more mature, acts like a child when shes with you, always thinks she’s too immature for you, has issues with eating because she knows you like tiny girls and she doesn’t feel small enough, and overthinks everything

Roy's drink was crème brûlée oreo and it was very good !

Can we make NOT romanticizing and normalizing Yandere and pretty much any type of toxic or unhealthy relationships a thing, i'm so tired of trying to find chuuya fics just to see "Yandere chuuya x reader!!" Shit come up, like no chuuya wouldn't rape and beat the shit out of me if i tried to break up with him.

its so annoying when a ship w two character is toxic and people just call it like "Toxic Yuri!!! 🥵🥵🥵🥵😍😍" like its a good thing and that its hot. I hate how 'normal' its become to have unhealthy relationships is, its not hot that your bf or gf doesn't let you have friends of the same gender, its not hot that they make you tell them where you are at all times and its not hot that they try to control your life.

Can we normalize calling out weirdos who post shit like "I want a gf who would lock me up in her basement" "Stalking him to make sure he isn't cheating or talking to any other girls" "Killing any girl that tries to come near him>w<!!!" You're admitting to wanting to commit crimes! Being a yandere isn't hot, kidnapping, murder, stalking ect isn't hot!

And i have a feeling this might also start an argument like the post i made about incest writers🤦‍♂️ i dont wanna see anyone even trying to excuse this type of shit